The thrill of victory and the illusion of defeat.....

November 23, 2011

It’s amazing how powerful the mind is. We can think ourselves into all sorts of perspectives. For instance, we can choose to see events as failures or simply a redirection of our plan. (Who said our way was the best way for things to go in the first place?) This is something that I am struggling with at the moment. After years of working on my health in lots of non-traditional ways, I have to admit that things are continuing to get worse so now I’m ready to start down the traditional path. And in my mind I consider that a failure, that I have been defeated in some way and now must prostrate myself before the great pharmaceutical gods. That may sound a bit dramatic but I assure you, that’s exactly what it feels like. What the hell?! When did it become such an either/or proposition? If I’m really willing to do just about anything to help me feel better, why does that preclude traditional medicine? Like I said, it’s amazing how convincing the mind can be.

So next week I will go visit a new doctor and see what we can do together to get me healthy. My black and white mind will simply have to learn to live with some grey. Maybe I should take some advice from my hair color!